Given that my life has been about living in a lot of fear, driven by fear, stopped by fear, I am now working on noticing, staying present to my feelings. When I am aware of me being fearful, tense, I go to relaxing my body and breathing slowly and deeply. This is a practice that I am in the process of making a habit for myself, for helping me to move from the fear based state to one of relaxation. It is work because from time to time I find myself caught up in fear and then have to consciously tell myself to relax.
I am also listening more to my music, my relaxation music. I am listening to the music not as a musician but as one practicing relaxation. I am now listening to my own products, listening to be more relaxed and at peace within myself. I know that if I listen to the relaxation music repeatedly for awhile that I can use the music to relax myself when I need it, when I am in that state of fear. I can not be in fear and relaxed at the same time. I am now training myself to make a conscious choice to be relaxed and give up the fear.
The next part of this process is to start to work on changing my fundamental internal language, what I say and how I talk to myself. I plan to focus on the use of positive affirmations to help me create a more healthy and happy state of existence.