The purpose of this entry is to share my current emotional state about my dream.
My dream, as I refer to it, is to impact the world with my music, to help others to relax with my music and as a result of listening to it to reduce the stress that they are experiencing. Part of the dream has to do with making the dream my sole vocation, to make it what I do full time. Part of my dream is to be able to make a living from the dream itself. Doing so would allow me to create even more music.
As I move towards my dream I have to stay present to the expectations that I create about the dream. For example, I do expect that I should now be making more money from the sales of the music than I am at the moment. I know that it is this belief that I have created that generates my frustration and even my doubts about the very nature of the dream. When my expectations are not being fulfilled, as it is not now, I even doubt where I should continue to pursue the dream, that maybe it is a waste of my time.
I know that I have to stay aware of my feelings, especially the negative ones, that are letting me know that I am frustrated about my dream. While it is easy to allow myself to fall completely into the frustration and even let myself be consumed by it I have to first recognize that I am in it, in an emotional dip, so to speak. If I am not able to become and stay present to my immediate emotions and feelings about the dream then the dream may never become a reality.
However, once I recognize that I am in a dip, I have to make an effort to shift my thinking, my thoughts, to something else, to move away from what I am thinking about. What I tend to do first is to let go of the work that I am doing with the dream and do something else different, like take a walk in nature, even down to the water. Another thought shift is to become aware of what I am grateful for, grateful for the fact that I have a dream and that progress is being made slowly. Part of being grateful is choosing at this point to practice staying aware of what is showing up and not what is missing.
While there is nothing that can replace the hard work that it takes to make the dream a reality, I have to stay aware of my thinking, of my very thoughts about the dream, as I go about the process of creating my dream. My thoughts will either assist me or be a barrier to making the dream happen. Positive thinking about the dream rather then negative thinking will go along way to making the dream happen for me. Keeping my thoughts positive about the dream does matter and will make the difference.
