Remembering an Extraordinary Event.

This time last year I was back in my home town.  I was not there to visit my friends or family but to be witness to something truly extraordinary.  Having arrived two days earlier I had come to my hometown, where I had grown up, to witness my mother’s passing.  Arriving on a Sunday I watched as my mother slipped into a coma, never to return.  For four days I sat with my brothers and son to watch my mother passing from this life.  On that Thursday my mother eventually passed.  Sitting by her bed side holding her hand, I was witness to something truly extraordinary.  Here was a wonderful, powerful woman, loving and caring to her family, about to leave the planet.  I was witness to someone who I truly loved and adored, who gave birth to me, pass away.  It was only fitting that as she watched me come into this world that I would watch her leave.  There is not one day that I do not think of her.  In moments of silence I can still hear her voice speaking to me.  I know she will always be there, in my heart.  I miss you mom.  You will always remain close to me.

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The Acceptance of a Passing.

On July 1st my mother passed.  I was there to witness it, to witness her taking her last breathe.  I feel honored to have been there.  This is was loving woman, my mother, who brought me into the world.  I had the honor of witnessing her leaving it.

The emotions and feelings over the past seven weeks have been many.  I miss her, I am sad beyond words.  I at times will call her house, and leave a message on the answering machine as if she will answer it, knowing full well she will not.  I know it is about my grieving process and I know that this is what I have to do to heal myself.  The loss is, along with the passing of my father, one the biggest things that I have ever experienced.

While difficult as it may be, I know that I will come to accept it, to know that it happened in divine order.  The passing of my mother is the way that it was meant to be, and my work is to accept it completely.  My acceptance will not take away the love I have for her, that will remain with me forever.  My work is simply to surrender to her passing, as I eventually must to my own when it happens.

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Reflections on a Passing.

It has been four weeks now since my mother passed.  The emotions that I have experienced have been many.  I miss her greatly and will mourn awhile longer, this I know.  She was a woman who meant so many things to me, a mother, a friend, a soul that I could have intense conversations with about many things, including transformative topics.  I will miss my talks with her as well as my knowing that she is there for me in so many ways.

The passing of my mother has made me think about a lot of things.  My mortality for one, somehow knowing that my death is very real and something that I will eventually experience.  I was there to watch her leave this realm of existence, when she took her last breath.  I know that we are not immortal in this sense, that I too shall past at some point.  I am now much more present to his fact. Some of us forget this point, or do not consider it, and as a result live our life as if we will live forever.

Such insight and awareness has gotten me to again reevaluate my purpose for being here, on this planet and as a human being.  More than even I know that we are just renting everything that we have materialistically, that we own nothing, and that what matters, truly matters, is other people, to be of service, specifically.  The highest purpose of a human being is to be of service to others. All we have is this and our love for others, it is all that truly matters.  To live our life as if we will live forever is to miss the point.  We must die before we die, as Tolle wrote.  As mother once told me about my father, my father passing two years before her, he did not even take his pajamas with him.

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The Power of Witnessing a Passing

Last thursday I had the honor of witnessing the passing of someone very dear to me.  Last thursday my mother passed and I able to witness it.  I was there to watch her pass, to watch her take her last breath.  An extraordinary woman who gave birth to me, who watched me take my first breath, I was given the honor of watching her take her last.  For someone that I never imagined would pass, she did.

One of the things that I again became present to is the notion of impermanence. As Dan Milman once wrote in The Way of the Peaceful Warrior, everything changes, nothing stays the same.  We sometimes believe and act as if we will live forever. We do not really get that change is the only constant, that we too will change physically and eventually pass.  We enhance the power of our being by getting that life is fragile and that we need to live it from the notion that our life will eventually go out of existence, that we too will pass.

When we live life from the perspective of impermanence we act and behave differently.  For me it is about being of service, of creating for the benefit of others, to do for others in order to enhance their life.  I know that I too will eventually pass.  Until then my life will be about service to others.

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